Happy Sweet 16 Hunter

Dear Hunter,

Today is your 16th birthday. 

Happy Sweet 16 baby!

I've been trying for a while to figure out what I could say today but I just end up deleting whatever I write.  Whatever I write just feels empty... meaningless...  irrelevant...  hollow...

I've been eyeing this day on the calendar since you left us, not knowing how we will get through the day and I'm still not sure but at least we will be together.  Me, your mom, Dayen, Jim, Chris, grandma A, uncle Mark and a bunch of others.  We will celebrate your life, and be incredibly grateful we had the honour of calling you a daughter, a sister, a niece, a granddaughter, a cousin, a friend, our Cheech.

You were loved so much by so many in your short time here with us. I don't know if we know yet how to live in a world where you don't exist but we are stepping through the days, together.  You are always on my mind.

It's hurts to laugh here without you
a piece inside of us is gone
so if you're looking down on me
I love you
and miss you
so much

Love Aunt Deenie
xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

All for you

Everlasting love forever skies of blue

All in your heart

Never ending just a means for start

Comfort in your eyes

For the warmth inside your smile

Faith's done gone astray

It was you who made living all worth the while

Oh I thank you my child

It was you who made living all worth the while

Oh I thank you my child

With the touch of your hand

Amidst confusion I can see enough to understand

All my fears repressed

Oh lovin' you child it's the best

You're all & everything to me

Til the end of times you know you'll always be

Ain't no second guess

Oh you put my worried soul to rest

Question

Despite the 80 followers showing I know there aren't that many of you that read this consistently (but I appreciate every single one of you).  Your feedback and comments keep me motivated and never fail to make me laugh sooooo I have a question for you.

I am switching to WP and getting my own domain, yup I'm finally doing it, but the 'needagoal' url is already taken.  So what should I go with?

shesaidineedagoal
needagoalblog
somethingelse

Any ideas, opinions would be much appreciated.

In other news, sideroad#1 repeats tonight with the Mommies for training.  I'm a team leader, now THAT is funny.

Do I look different?

Maggie, Mia, Spencer and Marley

I finally did it, I bought an iMac on the weekend.  Aside from the whole music transfer (which was my old PC issue) the rest of it was unbelievably easy.  I got a desktop iMac, this allowed me to spend more money on fun stuff.  It took me the better part of a day to copy the music from my old PC to my external hard drive, then plug it into the iMac and that transfer took less than an hour.  Sadly I lost all my playlists, not sure why so I had to redo those and that took a while.  The cool part was while I was transfering music and downloading/updating my podcasts I could actually do other stuff on the computer.  SHOCKER!!  I still can't figure out to do the basic of things like save / retrieve a file but I even did a back up of all my devices and my entire computer. 

Do I look different? 

Saturday I went for a training session with the coach, we did SR1 and Walkers Line.  I was surprised, in the past my legs would be burning on even the smallest hills right away but I think all those spin classes, a new bike and knowing how to gear much better this year has made a huge difference.  We didn't go too far and my legs didn't feel the slightest bit sore or tired.  I can't wait to get out there again and I will, tomorrow night with the Mommies/Babes in Motion. 

Saturday night I visited on of my besties and she had 5 dogs at her house.  3 are hers and two were visitng.  I was in puppy heaven! Ok they aren't all puppies, but I call every dog a puppy.  They wore out the black lab puppy Spencer, he is new and was toast by the time we went in the house. I have other pics but for some reason even though I rotated them when I saved them they are coming into the blog sideways.  No clue why that's happening.

I also have (but can't post,argh) pictures of the race simulation my coach hosted this weekend prepping the IronCanucks and others for Guelph Lake olympic this weekend.  Even though I am not racing until later in the season I always like to hang around so I volunteered.  There were probably 40 or so people participating and I had a great time!!  I might have to go to Guelph Lake and cheer some people on this weekend.

Busy week ahead for me and I have some major catching up to do with your blogs.  What's up with you guys?

ps - loved this post by Rodney.  Go give it a read. 

so I was...

wondering what the heck happened to spring?

waiting for coach Nancy to tweak my program to remove swim training for a few weeks til the tattoo heals, also run and bike is iffy til probably Friday. No dust or dirt allowed

relieved that the swim is the sport I'm least worried about

asking why no one reminded me, tattoo's hurt! Even after they are done

sure that the pain directly relates to the size of these puppies

scared to go for one-on-one hill ride with coachy on Saturday, eeeeeeek

thinking about making the switch to wordpress, you may want to turn your phones, twitter, email off for the inevitable questions. Except you Jason!

also thinking that I'll be buying a MAC this weekend, may as well switch over before I start this process. My home computer is liable to die at any second

notified that my blog is being published at Before it's news. I have no idea what this means and I'm sure they'll be thrilled when I switch to wordpress within a week

going to make apple horseradish coleslaw recipe from Top Chef Canada on the weekend and have it with BBQ chicken. Foodies, can I substitute greek yogurt for mayonaisse?

also going to make sushi ala Jason!!  I suspect I'll suck at rolling so I'm betting it turns into sushi casserole.

missing my dogs this week in particular

annoyed that the pics I wanted to post are rotated the wrong way and won't unrotate.. stupid iPhone pictures

that's all I got...

Matty was upset, no pics so I stole one of his

Addicted? Naw, it's just a tattoo

Jsin at our first appointment last year

Off work today and decided it was time to go and get my next tattoo.  I wasn't planning on this one but after Hunter passed away my plans changed and I wanted a memorial piece for her.  I went to see Jsin at Nude Buddha again.  He did my last one and I love his work.  He is also really funny and puts up with my constant whining and jumping around.  If you ever need tattoo work done I'd say go check his studio out in Milton.  I hear he's booked through July and can't thank him enough for taking me last minute.

We talked about what I was looking for and where I wanted it, outside right calf.  We mocked it up together, obviously I mostly just said 'great, ok, awesome' and about 2 hours of pain later I was done.  They guys in the shop called it 'sick'.  I am pretty sure Hunter was there with me.  Totally weird, the girl at the desk, her daughter's name is Hunter Lynne, another guy, his sister's name is Hunter and finally one of the other guys had a picture of cheech tattooed on him. Hunter's nickname is Cheech.

Not much else to say so I'll post the rest in pics. 

Intial mockup, LOVE the font!!!

I asked if we were half done, nope 30%

I'm sure he was saying, stay still, stop tensing up!

The finished product

 that's all I got...