Thursday, January 6, 2011

fight.. fight.. fight...

snuggle up!!!
It's amazing how much time I waste arguing with myself. If I'd just shut up and do it, it, whatever 'it' is, would be done already. It can range anywhere from doing the dishes to gettting out of bed, to a training session. I'm equally ambivalent about anything that doesn't have to do with me just relaxing. Every morning I press the snooze an alarming (haha see what I did there) number of times before I finally drag my butt out of bed. I've been doing it for so many years it seems impossible for me to stop. Now this is not to say I don't make it work on time everyday and even when I'm running late I am arriving at the office before 8:30 yet every morning it's an argument with myself. Top that off with the fact that I intentionally have my clocks set ahead and I change it up so I'm never sure what time it really is.. Maybe I just like to do math every morning..

Alarm: beep beep beep
Me: jump out of bed, run across the room to turn it off, think to myself, OH MY GOD IT'S COLD IN HERE and leap back into bed, yes I LEAP back under the covers wondering what time it really is because while I know the clocks says it's 5:30am I know it's really somewhere between 10 and 30 minutes ahead. I also know alarms number 2, 3 AND 4 will go off soon. By alarm number 3 or 4 I'm sufficiently annoyed and awake enough to drag my butt downstairs to make a coffee.

I marvel at people that hear the alarm, get out of bed and stay out. I've seen people do it and some days they look tired but they keep their butts moving. I'm 45 now and unlikely to change but if I could change something about myself I'd like to be a non-snoozer.

When it comes to the dishes they get done every night before I go to bed, or most nights. The dishwasher is loaded and the other items are washed and drying on the counter and yet there's always an argument with myself as to 'when' I will do them. I make dinner and put the dishes on the counter. I think to myself 'you should just get those out of the way now' but I never do, or rarely do it immediately. I will putter around for a while, find other things to do and eventually make my way back to the kitchen and get them done. On the occasions where I don't do them at all and leave them in the sink how bad can it be, it's only me and it's generally one meals worth but why the 'self argument and bartering', it's just a time waster.

If I could change something else about myself I'd be an immediate dish washer.

I'm sure you can imagine how it goes for training sessions as well. Take my run the other night for example. All the way home, and remember I have an hour or so commute to discuss this with myself I talk myself OUT of my training plans. It ususally starts out by me thinking that I have too many chores to do and I will not do any training that night. Haha who the hell am I kidding? I'm doing chores? See the paragraph on dishes above.. As the commute continues I find 101 reasons NOT to train, well there's that phonecall I need to make, and I'm starving and really need to eat NOW and if I eat dinner now then I can't train on a full stomach. As I get nearer to home then I start with things like, ok, you know what, stop being such a loser, just get 10 minutes done, if you do 10 minutes and still want to quit then quit but at least do 10 minutes. By the time I got home I realized it's 'now or never', get changed and get out there, even if it's only for 10 minutes so I got dressed and headed out. With each passing minute I found reasons to turn back, on this particular day and run it was because I was freezing, not just cold but "holy shit what was I thinking" freezing but as the time passed I thought, 5 more minutes, you can do 5 more minutes. Honestly all this pre-talk and negotiating is exhausting and annoying!!

Screw it, I'd just like a new brain please!!!

That's all I got...

13 comments:

Matty O said...

I am a hear the alarm and get out of bed type. EVERY TIME, alarm goes off, I am awake and on with my day.

Sucks to be you I guess?

Need to have a just do it attitude. Stop "negotiating" there is no negotiating in triathlon :)

She said I need a goal said...

Matty if I could turn OFF the negotiating believe me, I would.

ShutUpandRun said...

I'll come over there and knock some of that negotiating crap right out of you. But I just pushed snooze again.

Caratunk Girl said...

If I get out of bed, I am UP. But if I roll over and hit snooze, I am done.

Oh. I am an immediate dish washer. I hate dishes in the sink. I am completely neurotic about that!

Ian said...

Haha, people are going to hate me. My eyes open 10mins before the alarm goes off and I get up and switch it off before the noise.
I'm a big 'throw it in the dishwasher' type. If it can't go in the washer, I probably don't own it.

She said I need a goal said...

Mandy, see I told you I want to be more like.

Ian, 'hate' is a strong word but 'annoying' comes to mind. ;-) What about when you are tired?

JohnP said...

I've worked my way up to a 2 snooz-er. Alarm goes off I hit the snooze that gives me 7 minutes to reach out from under the warm blankets and grab the 2 thick socks sitting on the heating vent. They're so warm and toasty that by the 2nd alarm goes off I am ready to get up :)
It's still cold, but just get dressed fast! AND DON'T LOOK BACK! Keep pushing forward. Go through the motions.
DISHES? What are those? ;)

FranP said...

The alarm is on John's side of the bed and I don't hear the beeps until he shakes me, very aggressively I might add. Then I am angry at him for waking me up. I hate getting up when it is SOOO cold. What time do you go to bed? Maybe that is the problem?!? I know that is mine most of the time! ;)

Jason said...

I might need to buy a new car soon and you seem really really good at negotiating and gettign what you want so do you want to come with me?

My Boring Triathlon Blog said...

What's an alarm clock? I don't use one and I wake up eveyday between 4:30 am and 5:10 am

Anonymous said...

I'll send you my cat alarm...it gets me up because the alternative is to be licked to death. :-)

...D

Detroit Runner said...

I'm sorry to say, I'm usually one of those people that just gets up right away. Usually, I wake up a few minutes before the alarm goes off at 5am. If not, I'm up and out before I talk myself out of it. I really have it down. By 5:08, I've gone to the bathroom and started my foam rolling, 5:30am, I'm dressed in warm running clothes and out the door. It's a sad life, I know.

Julie said...

I've so had that training conversation with myself, more then once!