Alarm: beep beep beep
Me: jump out of bed, run across the room to turn it off, think to myself, OH MY GOD IT'S COLD IN HERE and leap back into bed, yes I LEAP back under the covers wondering what time it really is because while I know the clocks says it's 5:30am I know it's really somewhere between 10 and 30 minutes ahead. I also know alarms number 2, 3 AND 4 will go off soon. By alarm number 3 or 4 I'm sufficiently annoyed and awake enough to drag my butt downstairs to make a coffee.
I marvel at people that hear the alarm, get out of bed and stay out. I've seen people do it and some days they look tired but they keep their butts moving. I'm 45 now and unlikely to change but if I could change something about myself I'd like to be a non-snoozer.
When it comes to the dishes they get done every night before I go to bed, or most nights. The dishwasher is loaded and the other items are washed and drying on the counter and yet there's always an argument with myself as to 'when' I will do them. I make dinner and put the dishes on the counter. I think to myself 'you should just get those out of the way now' but I never do, or rarely do it immediately. I will putter around for a while, find other things to do and eventually make my way back to the kitchen and get them done. On the occasions where I don't do them at all and leave them in the sink how bad can it be, it's only me and it's generally one meals worth but why the 'self argument and bartering', it's just a time waster.
If I could change something else about myself I'd be an immediate dish washer.
I'm sure you can imagine how it goes for training sessions as well. Take my run the other night for example. All the way home, and remember I have an hour or so commute to discuss this with myself I talk myself OUT of my training plans. It ususally starts out by me thinking that I have too many chores to do and I will not do any training that night. Haha who the hell am I kidding? I'm doing chores? See the paragraph on dishes above.. As the commute continues I find 101 reasons NOT to train, well there's that phonecall I need to make, and I'm starving and really need to eat NOW and if I eat dinner now then I can't train on a full stomach. As I get nearer to home then I start with things like, ok, you know what, stop being such a loser, just get 10 minutes done, if you do 10 minutes and still want to quit then quit but at least do 10 minutes. By the time I got home I realized it's 'now or never', get changed and get out there, even if it's only for 10 minutes so I got dressed and headed out. With each passing minute I found reasons to turn back, on this particular day and run it was because I was freezing, not just cold but "holy shit what was I thinking" freezing but as the time passed I thought, 5 more minutes, you can do 5 more minutes. Honestly all this pre-talk and negotiating is exhausting and annoying!!
Screw it, I'd just like a new brain please!!!
That's all I got...